Why hello there. My name is Ting and I’m married to a wonderful husband and we have two children — Christopher (5 years) and Waverley (3 years). I decided last May to quit my job — the job I’d been at for 7 years. The job that I went back to graduate school for and subsequently paid a ridiculous amount of tuition for and that I was still paying back. After 7 years I realized that I’d rather stab my eyes out then continue to go in every day so I gave my notice and walked away from my career. I’m now a full-time mom and spend my days wiping butts, picking up toys and scrubbing toilets.

I went to UC Berkeley for my undergraduate degree and then onto M.I.T. for my MBA.  While trying to build my career, I had a full time nanny watching, feeding and caring for my children. Some days I feel lost, not walking into an office and most of the time I have no idea what I’m doing with the kids.

This blog is about this journey and my kids — who at times I think are trying to kill me. Literally, they are emotionally, physically, psychologically — little by little, trying to kill me.

Don’t get me wrong, being at home with them is wonderful in every single way, but it’s also horrible in every other single way. They take everything from me and all that’s left at the end of the day is this urge to run far far away. But then I wake up and I’m ready to begin again … chaos and all.

I tell myself every day that having children is making me a better person — it’s making me more understanding and more patient and more sympathetic, even if it’s chipping away at my mental state. I tell myself to take it one day at a time – to focus on getting through that specific day without yelling and without losing my temper. If I can do that, it’s a good day.

Selfishly this blog is to help me keep my sanity but I hope to find other parents out there, like me, hanging by a thread.

Here’s to Mommyhood — to all of the wonderful things and to all of the sh*t they left out.